Some big doors closed for me this past week. Doors I have been working towards for years. But I’ll tell you why I am actually hopeful and excited about these doors closing! Today, I get to share with you how I make (seeming) failure work for me in real-time. I truly believe that the path to manifesting our goals and dreams is not linear - this means that when doors seem closed to us, they are not really closed, but rather pointing us in a different direction on the path. Sometimes, we have to go through other doors in order to get to the one we want to open for us. And that can be really exciting! In my experience, these “other” doors (that seem like they are off the path), open the way to the truly enriching adventures in life!
Recently, I did a podcast interview with Brian Ondrako where I talked about how various experiences in my life felt like I was being taken off the path, when in reality, these ancillary experiences were enriching my life and bringing me towards an even more fulfilling goal.
Normally, I look forward to the Spring and Fall Equinoxes as a lucky time for me personally. The energy around these seasons unfailingly brings an abundance of manifestations, surprises and breakthroughs. It’s already been a stellar year for me, so naturally I was looking forward to the Harvest Moon. This entire year I was in synchronicity - that flow that everyone talks about when life is magical and just brings everyone and everything into your life that you need. Business opportunities abounded. I harnessed this energy and devoured every single day with a ferocious intent that I haven’t felt in a long time. It was exhilarating and magical. I didn’t take it for granted because I know seasons change and cycles evolve.
And then - it stopped. On September 20th it felt like everything I have been working hard towards, all of the things I was so excited for, didn’t work out. Add to this, Eukiah has hit a particularly rough developmental patch as a “threenager,” which puts added pressure on everything. He needs my undivided attention right now. And it felt like a sign when my Instagram account literally stopped working out of the blue. I couldn’t make reels or fun stories or use any of the functionality that I need in order to maintain my business as a creator. All the signs in my life are asking me to STOP and REDIRECT my focus.
So, why am I excited? Because my faith in God and the Universe is undeviating. I have no doubt that these doors have closed because something HUGE is coming. Something wonderful. I have completely surrendered my force of will and am examining my life with renewed eyes. The things that have left me, gave way to more space for something new. More time. More energy to focus on where the path is leading me now. This IS the journey and I relish in the disappointing, difficult moments as much as I do the successes and the joyrides.